As B.C. continues to confront the worsening overdose crisis, one user questions why politicians continue to treat them like nothing more than statistics.
Nathan Watts, a member of the Tseshaht First Nation near Port Alberni, said he鈥檚 never seen government officials joined by actual users when they talk about addiction and overdose, so he wanted to share his story.
Watts, 42, is trying to reconcile with his past self. As a early teen, he started hanging with the wrong crowd and eventually found himself in a gang. It was in those adolescent years that his using began and he became addicted to substances at 15. Thinking he was being given cocaine, Watts said he was really doing heroin, fentanyl and more.
He鈥檚 tried to leave that life behind and better himself, but has never been able to fully shake the grip that drugs have on him and still relapses by drinking and using crystal meth.
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鈥淚t鈥檚 hard to reach out to people. Us addicts are constantly being shamed on social media,鈥� Watts said. 鈥淚t鈥檚 the shame that makes us want to use alone and get away from society.鈥�
When he lost his younger sister to an overdose last year, it was an eye opener and a push to get help.
鈥淚 had to see my sister dead to actually change, it鈥檚 really hard,鈥� he said, adding that through his recovery efforts, he鈥檚 hoping to prevent the trauma his family endured then.
鈥淚 never want to put them through that pain. I鈥檝e been through a lot of battles because of my addiction, I also hurt a lot of people, I regret that.鈥�
After getting treatment last summer, he relapsed as soon as he got home.
Karen Urbanoski, a researcher with the University of Victoria-based Canadian Institute for Substance Use Research, shed further light on the subject.
鈥淪tigma and trauma tend to make the experiences worse and keep people from getting the supports that they need,鈥� she said. 鈥淭here鈥檚 a lot of hate for people who use drugs.鈥�
Watts acknowledged that scenario.
鈥淚 know I鈥檓 an addict and I admit I鈥檓 an addict. We have to stop judging each other.鈥� He quoted a phrase often used in recovery fields: 鈥淗urt people, hurt people.鈥�
Urbanoski expanded on that thought, noting that substance users commonly judge themselves harshly, even more than others do.
鈥淭hey鈥檙e experiencing that internally and hating themselves, at the same time that everything seems to be going wrong, and that kind of situation just perpetuates the drug use,鈥� she said. 鈥淭here isn鈥檛 one (type of treatment) that鈥檚 going to work for everyone, and unfortunately if people try something and it doesn鈥檛 work, they blame themselves. The reality is it鈥檚 likely more accurate to say that wasn鈥檛 the correct path for them.鈥�
These days, Watts finds solace in his art, carvings, caring for his late sister鈥檚 house and trying to reconnect with family.
鈥淚 recently found my smile again,鈥� he said.
Watts only asked that people hear a user鈥檚 perspective before they judge others.
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